What is this?

It is peace. That's exactly what it is. I have never in my life felt this. I thought I knew what true peace felt like. But nope, I did not. (Never knew peace and that is sad.) Infact, I didn't because I would allow the enemy to use doubt, distractions, and self pity to consume me and disrupt my life. I was living a daily routine. (Not living not thriving in life.) Jesus explains: " The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. John 10:10 KJV

In my eyes, I was obeying God and following this fundamental principle: 
"But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you." Luke 12:31 KJV. Trying so hard to justify my wrong, I constantly debated with the holy spirit : God knows my heart. "Yeap , he does sweetie and you are not right." It was past time for me to realize I was lost and denial filled my heart.

God's peace is an amazing feeling. No words can begin to explain how incredible this is. Although the steps I list next are simple. They are not easy.
1. I restate the obvious: seek the kingdom of God. (Re-read top)

2 Arm yourself against the enemy by studying the word. "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." James 4:7 KJV Meditate on scripute so you are always ready to fight the evil one who will appear in your mind or before your eyes,  in the flesh. And, "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." 2 Timothy 2:15 KJV

3. No offense intended, but I was surrounded by people, places, and things who / that didnt challenge me to be a better person. And no it is not their fault. No shade, I'm not passing blame. All this was me! My own mess, I had to clean up. I just had to say Yes to God and no to self. I simply chose to walk away. You think this is cold or extreme? Well, finding my purpose, Gods will for my life became my primary goal and it was necessary.  We are taught in Galatians: "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,  Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.  And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.  If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.  Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another." Galatians 5:22‭-‬26 KJV So, I must constantly examine my motives. Pray daily for God to remove anything that is displeasing to him.

4. Hold up! It doesnt stop there. There is an area that requires constant strengthening / maintenance: my faith.
Faith truely is believing; It is confidence and assurances in God's promises.    
"Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;" Deuteronomy 7:9 KJV. Faith is not worrying but knowing God will provide. He always does. So why would he stop? He won't. He knew me before I knew myself, so he knows what I need. He loves me.

Thus, this is how I get here. "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 KJV

Solution - Now here is the kicker. I must repeat all the steps daily to keep my peace.

Thank you to all the people God has placed in my life. You provide contant examples of fruits of the spirit. You also provide guidance and gentle correction.
(RS, HK, KMC, TW, HT, JJ, ACF, AD) (+)

So Grateful and Thankful.
Lord thank you for purpose.